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I’ve been intentionally working with the raw creative energies we call anger (or popular these days: sacred rage) since I was eighteen and bought a plastic bat to beat the bed in my dorm room as an alternative to being a dick and/or burying my
Happy World Book day! Two books, two journeys: 1. Initiation to the true self (The Second Half of the Mountain) 2. Integration of the true self in all areas and relational spaces of life. Oh my! (Down from the Mountain) I explore both journeys th
It’s okay to feel terrible (I remind myself). Trying to feel good all the time is inhuman. Being human includes the gamut. We get to experience it all—the pain, the beauty, the devastation, and yes, through it all, the glimmering, endurin
Discernment vs judgment. From a lifelong lover of discernment with an ego that loves to indulge in judgment from time to time. 😅 Today I take my aligned and unique place in the symphony of humanity and remember that we’re all in this differe
Self-reflective prompts from and for the overgiving branch of people pleasing. With love, M Slides: 1. When I overgive, I feel terrible. What am I trying to get from doing so? 2. What’s my neediest need underneath that I’m not liste
I went on a spiritual journey through radical shifts in consciousness and all I got was the call to be more human (!?) But, but, but… How to be human in a world that feels like it has no place for you? How to be human in a world of sufferin
What brought me comfort yesterday may feel dry as dust today. Magic is a thing of the moment. Will I give up what I think should be happening for what’s actually happening? Will I face my biases and judgments? Will I do something I swore I
Everything is going away. How? How to love what’s here before it’s gone. To engage deeply and hold lightly. To keep going even as it goes. To know that nothing is adding up to anything but this moment. To take this breath and
This is what it means to live with soul: continually being made and remade from the stuff of mystery. ♡, M    Slides: 1. I’m going to feel how I feel when I feel it, no thanks to anything I do to chase or make certain feelings hap
Taking a long and difficult look at my relational habits that kept me from being in partnerships in ways that would actually support and sustain me has been an essential part of my down from the mountain* journey. This includes declining any invitat
I’ve lived in twenty-one different houses in twenty-one different zip codes in the past twenty years. Home is not a place on the map, I’ve found, but a fierce decision I make every day to cultivate belonging to exactly where I am. #Ho
Living with soul is hard because it requires a perpetual surrender of plans in exchange for what is. The way of soul is not something that can be mapped out, predetermined, or set in bullet points. Living with soul means there will be no protocol
Some McMusings with love on a very rainy coastal Saturday. ♡ Slides: 1. Whatever cracks my heart will not be wasted. I will open, open, open. Soften, soften, soften. This is my alchemical commitment to the prima materia of my life. 2. The beaut
I haven’t always been able to do this: hold my alignment without feeling threatened by someone’s differing alignment. Alchemy has been harsh, but good to me. It’s worn away everything NOT IT about me so I could see and be and ho
The study of inner alchemy started with a bunch of weirdos sitting around trying to turn base metal into gold. Through exhaustive efforts, they realized something EVEN MORE AMAZING than turning lead into gold was happening: They were transforming t
Oh, this love I have for being human. ✧ ♡ ✧ Slides: 1. A sign of spiritual maturity is to give ourselves wholeheartedly to the mundane, the painful, the boring ordinary...and to discover along the way that the most magical thing in the world is
This is huge for me. As a recovering People Pleaser and Empath Without Boundaries having suffered a burnout so severe it almost ended me (and, in many ways, did end me), I no longer place any virtue on being “selfless.” I include and co
“I don’t have maps for this, but I have a soul,” I said recently to a dearest of mine. Soul is the guide. The signs of soul are in (not separate from) my body–my guts, my fascia, my tears, my nerves, my toes. I listen (or no
I am a mystic. My gate is narrow. ♡ Slides: 1. Step out of the limelight and into the quiet corners of your everyday life. The close-in ache. The flesh and blood people. The hardest, most important place to start, to ground your love, to make th